Pregnant after 2 miscarriages

Third time is a charm? lets hope! I have had two miscarriages, 1 m/c 2 years ago at 11 weeks and 3 months ago at 9 weeks. I have had a ton of bloodwork done by my gyno to rule out any diseases or hormonal imbalances that could be causing the miscarriages. My gyno said everything seemed fine and gave us the green light to try again. My gyno said it was likely just a fluke to have 2 miscarriages in a row, and I'm sure shes right, but I am sure I am not alone in thinking - "is she crazy?! there has to be something wrong with me! why would i miscarry TWICE?!" But that is just the thoughts in my head. Logically I agree with my doctor its just that little voice in the back of my head saying "you won't be able to stay pregnany, you will keep losing each one" Depressing right? So I am just keeping my head up, and also not getting my hopes up at the same time. I am taking my vitamins and eating well and exercising regularly and just waiting for that 12 week mark where I get to see my little one on an ultrasound! My miscarriages have been a little strange, I thought I would write about them in case anyone out there is experiencing the same thing. My first m/c was extra difficult. I had had no cramping of bleeding and went in at 11 weeks to hear the heart beat using the doppler thing. They couldn't hear anything but as I am a larger girl my doctor said it might just be a layer of fat muffling the sound, but he scheduled me for an ultrasound anyways to check on things. When I had my ultrasound I could see that little peanut shape on the screen and i was so happy until I realised we were looking at a thermal imaging and i could see heat signatures all around the peanut but nothing coming from the peanut. The ultrasound tech excused herself to go get a doctor and thats when I knew something wasn't right. The doctor told me that the fetus had actually stopped growing at 9 weeks (and I was supposed to be 11 and a half! ...so for two weeks my body had been fooling me and making me think I was still pregnant! There was no cramping, no bleeding, nothing! I thought everything was perfect :( So with that there were some issues. I hadn't miscarried normally, I still had an aborted fetus sitting inside my uterus. They gave me a few options - including waiting it out til it came out naturally but I didn't want it sitting inside of me 'dead'. I was so disgusted with myself I just wanted it out. So I had a D & C. I cried and cried for days. I understand that fetuses abort becuase they weren't growing properly so that there was something wrong with it. I wasn't really mad at having a miscarraige because I knew it was probably for the better. What I was mad at about was how my body had tricked me! THe fetus died at 9 weeks and by the time my D & C was scheduled I was technically in my 12th week. I still hadnt had any cramping or bleeding. I hate to think that if I hadn't gone for that ultrasound how long would it have been sitting inside of me for! My second miscarriage: I made it to 8 weeks and started having some spotting, I went to the doctor who said it was probably nothing as there was no cramping associated with it. They told me to refrain from anything strenuous and they referred me for an ultrasound. (My doctor is a family doctor so I have to go to the Hospital for ultrasound appointments). My ultrasound was scheduled for a thursday and I started bleeding heavily on the wednesday. As I am RH - I knew if I had any red blood I needed to get my WinRo shot to prevent any antibodies, so I went to the emergency room and waited there. Since there was no tissue coming out the doctor told me the embryo could still be ok and that lots of women bleed but don't miscarry. I got my WinRo shot and went on my way, nervous for my ultrasound in the morning. The next day when they put the gel on my belly and used the wand to find the fetus there was actually nothing there. To me it looked like nothing, but I guess they could see the 'pole' or something and they were able to tell that the embryo had stopped growing around 6 weeks by this time I was almost 9 weeks, so it seemed the same kind of scenario as the first miscarriage. It took my body a couple of weeks to realise the embryo wasn't viable anymore and to expel it. I imagine if I had waited a week longer the first time around it would have come out naturally. This time as it was already aborting itself the doctor just told me to come back if I had a fever, any signs of infection, etc. and that was that..

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