Always the Auntie, Never the Bump...Until Now

My name's Amanda, otherwise known as Fivefeetsmall. I'm petite at 5 feet tall, which really isn't tall at all (hence the nickname). Being pregnant has turned my life upside down. Mind, body, and heart. At almost 30 I was under the impression that I'd never be a mother. I mean I wasn't exactly a saint in my 20's and never even had a pregnancy scare. I was told a multitude of things: perhaps it was the endometriosis I was diagnosed with as a teen, the anxiety and stress I was under, another more severe underlying problem, or maybe the timing wasn't right. Whatever the reason, it was heartbreaking to watch friends and family continue to bring their own "littles" into the world. I pushed that little twinge back as much as I could to move on and be the best Auntie I could be. My niece and nephew have become my world. The night before my 30th birthday I woke up in the middle of the night scared because I felt my blood pressure drop drastically. The next morning I was convinced I must have some death dealing plague. I simply couldn't get it together. My Mom secretly knew and insisted I take a pregnancy test. Sure enough...I found out that I would finally be a Mommy on my 30th birthday! It was the scariest, most exciting moment of my life. Now I await either baby Jaxon or baby Harper...stay tuned.

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