My 30th came and life changed quickly...
I am kind of a newlywed... I married my wonderful husband August 24th, 2010 after 3 1/2 years of dating. We decided to try and start a family right away... after 6 months of trying, I realized that I may need to see a doctor as I had been having worse cramps than normal and heavier spotting than usual. I say heavier than usual because I have had light bleeding every single day for over a year, and my OB/GYN dismissed it when I questioned it. I was recommended to a new doctor, who found the cause immediately. I had to undergo a laporatomy and my right ovary was removed due to the damage sever endometreosis caused. He did have to remove 1/3 of my left ovary as well, but was able to save my eggs. I will not be able to get pregnant naturally now due to the tube damage, but I can do IVF. We are currently on month one of a 6month Lupron Therapy which will slow down my egg production so that any unseen endometriomas that may have been on the left ovary cannot grow. Around month 4, we will meet with the fertility specialist to determine the best timing for IVF. They ideally will start the next set of hormones immediately after month 6 of Lupron is complete... this way my period will have been suppressed the time they require so they can plan the "harvest." I guess I am nervous about everything these days... My husband and family are wonderful, but I can't exactly open up completely about how I am feeling. I know I am a crazy, hormonal lady right now, but I tell you, I even have a hard time trying control these emotions!! I can cry for hours on end for no reason... something as simple as my pooch losing a bone outside can bring me to uncontrollable tears!! I am also finding that I am extra annoyed with people who have children and don't take care of them! This has always bothered me, but I am more angry about it now because there are so many of us women who want kids that cannot have them! Where I live, a number of young schoolage children are in the streets playing with no supervision... not wearing hats or mittens when it is only 20 degrees outside... all while Mom and Dad watch TV and smoke their cigarettes!! I just don't understand that... I know people say "everything happens for a reason," but I can't understand that at this time. My surgery was on March 8th, 2011, so this is still all new to me and in time, I may see a silver lining, but right now, I feel what I feel. I am hoping that through this site and with the support of others who can relate to what I am going through, I can build some strength and cope better than I am now. I do have things I am thankful for and I concentrate those things a lot. I have a great husband who will do anything for me and has proven to be my knight in shining armor through this whole thing... We also have a 6 year old Boxer named Chance who is my world!! He is so much more than a family pet!! And we have a cute little 4 year old 88cent goldfish named Tot! He has survived a lot for a fish having made several moves with us over the last 4 years!! Also, my family and my in-laws, friends... they have all been great and helping us out when we need it. Well, that is a little about me so far... I would love advice, pick me up stories, or just an ear to hear me!! I am also here now for anyone who may be looking for the same thing!! I have a feeling this site will be exactly the "hug" I have been needing!
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