Am I still a mommy if my children are in Heaven?
I am young. Only 21 going on 22 to be exact. My life is covered in tradgedy lately though, enough to make me wonder why I still want children. Not enough to make my husband and I stop trying. Before I met my husband he had already lost 3 children to miscarriage, and I myself had lost 1, all we had ever wanted was a family, even though I am young I have been through a lot and know and cherish the meaning of family and love and even living. My husband and I met and fell instantly in love in October of 2009 and nearly instantly became pregnant with our son in heaven who we call Bubba, I misscariied around 4 months due to stress and we were extremely heart broken, Bubba was my second loss, and my husband's 4th...About 6 months later or so, in June/July of 2010 we started trying and became pregnant instantly again, with our daughter in heaven, Carol "Amy" Long 2/25/11-5/9/11...she died due to SIDS or crib death at 10 weeks 3 days old...she was and is our world and we will never replace her or ever get over losing her, she is the perfect baby in my pictures...now nearly 2 months after her loss our arms are empty, we're still broken and our home is too quiet and lonely...We decided to try again. As of right now, we hit the dates of ovuation and are waiting to see if it worked or not, Amy has come to me in 2 dreams to tell me about her sister Lilly so we will see what happens from her, we pray that God blesses us with a large family here on earth, since we now have 6 children in heaven...And as of today 7/12/11 I got 2 possitive tests!!!
xxxkittenxxx wrote:
And for the record...I just got 2 possitive tests!!! :)