Mom Sums Up Postpartum Depression in One Raw Instagram Photo

"This is what postpartum depression looks like, or at least what it did for me."
ByAnisa Arsenault
Associate Editor
Published
Feb 2018

Tori Block is on the other side of postpartum depression. She fought, she won, and now she’s sharing a glimpse of what it looked like for her. Because she wants other moms to know, from her experience, someday the lowest lows will just be something you look back on.

“This is a picture I most likely will not keep up for very long,” Block writes on Instagram. “This is me, at the peak of my postpartum depression. I asked [my husband] Shiloh to take a picture of me, so I could remember how far I’d come, if I ever came out of it.”

She did come out of it, and it’s something she’s extremely outspoken about on her Instagram page. But that doesn’t mean she doesn’t recall exactly what it felt like.

“Looking back at this photo I remember perfectly the pain I felt, the dread in waking up everyday, the physical pain that engulfed me from thoughts in my brain,” she says. “I didn’t want to leave this life, but it seemed like the only way that would rid me of the pain I was in.”

Ultimately, and with the support of friends and family, Block began seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist who prescribed her medication. But it took a search about ways to end her own life to make her realize she really needed help.

“I didn’t ask for it, it wasn’t welcome. But there it was, and I kicked its f*cking ass and beat it to the ground before I let it consume me.”

And it’s a good thing she did, so she didn’t miss a minute of life with this cutie.

H/T Babble

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