Pregnancy Loss Still Hurts After Having 4 Kids, Kylie Kelce Admits

“I always like to tell people that comparing miscarriages or infant loss between women is like comparing apples and oranges. It is scarring and stays with you in a way that is yours only. And whether you have a loss at six weeks or 13 weeks or whenever, that loss is real.”—Kylie Kelce

No pregnancy loss is the same. But sharing your story and listening to others can help you feel less alone.

In honor of Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month, Not Gonna Lie podcast host and candid pregnancy and parenting queen Kylie Kelce opened up about her past miscarriage. “It is interesting how sometimes it takes you experiencing a loss for people to open up about their own,” Kelce said before sharing her story. “And I don’t necessarily think that we should always have to be prompted to share what is very, very normal in trying to grow your family.”

Kelce went on to recount the details of her miscarriage, which occurred in 2018. “After a few months of trying without success, we had our first positive pregnancy test. I say ‘we’—Jason didn’t pee on the stick—I had my first positive pregnancy test,” she recalled with her characteristic humor.

Conscious of pregnancy loss and wanting to keep the news to her inner circle, Kylie and her husband, Jason, decided to begin telling their family when traveling and then preparing for a family trip to London and Ireland during the Eagles’ bye week. “We made it a point to surprise Jason’s mom and dad when we were there by pretending to take a photo and telling them that we were expecting,” she said. “We also surprised Jason’s aunt Judy and his grandmother, Grandma Mary… and we surprised Travis with little baby booties.”

But when the couple returned home, everything changed. “When we got back from our family trip to Ireland, I went to my regularly scheduled 13-week appointment,” Kelce shared. “They tried to do the Doppler, and the minute…I would say everything felt like it went into slow motion…they couldn’t find the baby on the doppler.”

After a follow-up ultrasound, doctors confirmed there was no heartbeat and explained she had what’s called a “missed miscarriage,” or a generally asymptomatic miscarriage, where your body doesn’t realize that the pregnancy is no longer viable. Kelce recalled, “It was a shitty day. It was a shitty day because it was Jason’s birthday.”

“I emphasize the fact that this [pregnancy loss] still hurts after having four children, because it does. And it’s okay,” Kylie, who is mom to daughters Wyatt, 6, Elliotte, 4, Bennett, 2, and Finn, 6 months, said. “For people who are still on their journey and haven’t yet gotten over the hump of getting to meet their tiny humans. I am so sorry for people who have experienced loss and who have also gotten to meet some of their tiny humans. I am also sorry because it doesn’t not hurt.”

Kelce went on to share that the experience deeply impacted every pregnancy afterward. “Having that experience then messed with my brain for every consecutive pregnancy,” she admitted. “For Wyatt, we didn’t share that we were pregnant until I was after 20 weeks…I Googled almost every week what the percentage likelihood was that a baby could survive. Which sounds really dark—I literally did it for Finn.”

Through tears, Kelce shared what helped her heal: “The things that helped me get through it were talking about it. I am a person who is an open book. I talked about it with my mom, who also experienced a loss, I talked about it with just about everyone. Since then, I’ve had friends and people I know go through losses, and like I said, it never leaves you.”

She ended the emotional segment with a message for others who’ve experienced pregnancy loss. “I’m so sorry if you’ve experienced this—truly sorry—because it sucks, and there’s really no other way to say it. It just sucks,” she continued. “This October, and really every month of the year, women’s health should be taken seriously and prioritized so that every woman going through something like this can get the care she needs. I will be donating to some organizations that have made this their mission, and I hope that you will do the same.”

You can learn more about Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month and how to support mothers expierencing loss at StarLegacyFoundation.org and MarchofDimes.org.